Dream after therapy July 18

As I have written I have been in PTSD therapy so that I might be healed and be the best RCWP I can be with my gifts and knowing my limitations.

I had this dream:
It is day. I am in a repair shop. I am going to leave the service area by walking down a ramp. The ramp looks like it is made for people not autos. It has a cement floor and brick walls with windows of bricked glass, the kind you can't see through but let in light.

I start down and a white tiger with black spots that are hard to see is coming up the ramp with its tail swishing. I turn around and escape shutting the door and telling everyone, "A tiger is on the ramp." He gets out and everyone is in a panic.

I wake up.
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I looked up the symbol "tiger: ambivalent, solar and lunar, creator and destroyer. A white tiger may symbolize the western region (where the sun sets), season of autumn, element of metal."

I certainly am in the autumn of my life heading toward 68 years of age. In my early sessions I wrote about the primes of my life being creator/destroyer. Here it is in a dream image. After this dream I notice a lessening of emotional and physical energy. I propose that I carried the energy of destruction and that gave me energy to live and force answers. Now I have released the anger/destruction and rest in a peaceful being of self.

I do not feel driven to accomplish/carry forth/change any more. I want to be who I am after a lifetime of striving. I want to be loving and kind to all whom I meet, that is enough for me. The question is, "If I have gotten energy from my anger/destructive self, where will I now get my energy?" How do I replace the energy of the tiger within