I sit here at the computer wondering what the future holds for myself and ministry. I must go to the neurosurgeon on Monday for a MRI. For the last two years I have had intermittent pain in my lower back-right side below the waist and now episodes of numbness each day. It is time for me to find a diagnosis and prognosis before I take on a ministry that I might not be able to carry out fully.
Don't know the cause but maybe a permanently slipped disk? arthritis of the spine? injury to disk or vertebrae itself? Not sure but it wears me down each day by evening.
I think of the value of suffering and having experienced so much emotional and spiritual suffering in my life I do not want to have to experience physical pain also if I do not need to do it. I am not big into pain of any kind. I was hoping that I would have my "golden years" to minister as a RCWP, they may not happen.
I have held fetuses in my hand and baptized them so I know how blessed I have been to live almost 68 years. Active and able to travel, to experience new things. I am ready for what ever the MRI shows.
Say a prayer for my good health especially for my lower back.
Blessings,
katy
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